What to do?

What am i supposed to do at this time? I thought today i could make your day an all happy day. But i guess i was wrong. I ruined your day. You said that i didn't ruin it, but how i see it, i did ruin it :( I feel that i'm not good enough, i should be doing my homework that is due tomorrow. i should be doing my assignment actually. But i can't. I'm not in the mood to do it. I always give you these shit nights. I wonder why you love me sometimes, when i do these kind of things to you. I feel like i could deserve a slap across the face.

WHAT AM I DOING?! D:<